Birth

I really REALLY wanted to be back for Leah's birthday...And I sit here thinking about the day she was born and how I screamed in the operating room while my sister in law came down the hallway only to turn abruptly around and walk out the door...and SWORE she would NEVER have a child, EVER!!! My dad came to be there as well, and I remember him telling me that when leah was born there was the most beautiful sunrise he has ever seen!! Living in a very flat area at the time, there is nothing like those type of sun rises in the spring!  Holding you, my dear Leah, so cute little, cute and serine, I could not longer see any one or anything in the room, just your cute little face...the one I love and the one that has made me proud and happy to be a mom. Happy Birthday my honey, We will celebrate again when xxhttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2010_eruptions_of_Eyjafjallaj%C3%B6kull stops her tantrums:)

You try to pronounce it!!

What is one to feel when a natural disaster thwarts best laid plans?? Living In England as long as I have, there is a saying and it has stuck with me, simple but effective, "Just get on with it". I am sad and it's frustrating and you can go on and on about all the things you are feeling and how you're stuck in this city, this airport or having to stay an extra day with in laws but the outcome is the same, the Volcano Eyjafjallokull is what it is and NO BODY can go anywhere so just chill out and enjoy this time, at the least you can have a few extra days with loved ones or a nice sea side picnic at the stranded destination and think about something else for a change...but No, humans are a weird bunch and i say this with a warm heart and smile at the same time, I can't say I'm any different, but i certainly would enjoy what extra time was given to me to just relax. The weirdness about this whole thing was in my gut I knew something was going to happen the night before...not TO me but something to keep me from getting to my destination...It's not something I can easily explain, it is more like a feeling of NOT being able to see myself with my kids atm...yes i know it's pretty weird, but those of you who know me well know that I'm not making this up. And so here I sit for another week, decided to let the lovely Eyjafjallokull spew out her frustration upon us all, but come Saturday, she better had "gotten on with it" and stop because it's been time to go home!!!!! :)

Moya (Maire ) Brennan

There is a story behind this song, one that made me fall in love with Moya Brennan...
I was taking a walk down town and went into a esoteric music shop just next to what used to be Beers Books, a wonderful little shop, lots of weird and wonderful music and I happen across this cd, as well as something else, this was just before i was coming to England to see Dave. The lyrics in this song opened my eyes to my pain and also my love...

http://www.moyabrennan.com/

Fear not the stillness
Will a gentle voice
Guide me out side this frame
Sweep stars around us
Now the flowerless trees
Blooming carefree

Wonderful days
Wonderful life
Wonderful life with love

Faded rain
From where I stand
A wasted life I had on my hands
Down the scented ways I did stray
But I'm weak
Don't let me go
I found you love
Inside my heart
When my world was falling apart
Your golden breath
Took darkness away
If I ask You won�t let me go

Light me a candle
Will the flicker grow
Reach me within my soul
Sweet streams are melting
No more broken games
Now for me to play

Wonderful ways
Wonderful life
Wonderful life with love

Faded rain
From where I stand
A wasted life I had on my hands
Down the scented ways I did stray
But I'm weak
Don't let me go
I found your love
Inside my heart
When my world was falling apart
Your golden breath
Took darkness away
If I ask You won't let me go

Faded rain
From where I stand
A wasted life I had on my hands
Down the scented ways I did stray
But I'm weak
Don't let me go
I found your love
Inside my heart
When my world was falling apart
Your golden breath
Took darkness away
If I ask You won't let me go